Snuggle Moments

So I guess I did too much Friday and Saturday because I have been in one of those moods today. You know...the one where it would have been easier to stay in bed (the weather didn't help either) and not have any responsibilities. The day began with Elizabeth being in one of her lovely moods and she had a tantrum while putting clothes on. She then took FOREVER to eat breakfast which in turn made us late to church and I was singing in the choir.

Church was exactly what I needed today (don't you love it when that happens??). Pastor Dan talked about when we go through those "spiritual winters" and gave some uplifting words on how we are never forsaken by God and even when we feel that He is not there...He is!! The choir sang the anthem I quoted in my previous blog post called "Bow the Knee". It was so fitting and perfect. I cannot get the words out of my head, which is a good thing right now.

We then had lunch with friends and family. Elizabeth was then in another one of her moods. Sidebar: she was probably not as bad as I am recollecting because I was still in a mood. The afternoon only got worse with her mood and mine! I was so excited to be able to crawl in bed and take a wonderful little nap - Elizabeth had other plans. She might have fallen asleep for maybe 45 minutes. Matt left for work and I felt defeated.

Luckily Elizabeth and I survived the night. Today was one of those days when being a mother was very hard (for those that have older children, I know this is only the beginning). It was one of the first times since she was an infant when I felt defeated and honestly...I didn't like her very much today. I LOVE her always..but not so much liking her very much today. We were both feeding off of each other's moods and I think she felt it. In fact, I know she felt it.

The whole day was made better when I was rocking her after we read books. She snuggled into me and I began singing. She started "singing" with me very softly. In between the songs, I kissed her on the head and told her I loved her. She snuggled in tighter (felt almost like a hug) and "talked" back to me. My heart melted all over again. I couldn't have liked or loved her anymore than in that moment.

It has made me think...there are times when I know that God doesn't like me - the decisions I have made, my attitude, my lack of gratitude, and the list goes on and on. He still LOVES me and is still there for me...taking care of me, just as I was for Elizabeth. Then there are those sweet moments when I snuggle into Him and I know His heart is warmed.

Looking forward to more "snuggle moments" in my life! :)