Can you talk a little louder??

Several months ago Matt downloaded a song that he heard at church one Sunday when I wasn't there. I instantly loved it when I first heard it. I love how a song can say much to me at just the right time (more on this in a little bit).

These past few days have been a whirlwind. Work has been absolutely CRAZY. This is our busiest time of the year mainly because the kids are out of school so parents are finding it harder to find a place to stay for their entire family. The stories have been heartwrenching and I only have so much space in my shelter. On Wednesday I had an interesting meeting in a coffee shop (the rest of this story will probably come out in another blog when my mind stops running 90 miles a minute). I was asked to pray about something and give them an answer. Don't you just love when people say that?

Well...I did just that. I prayed very specifically that I would hear clear as day what God wanted me to do. I reminded Him that I don't listen very well and I am very stubborn so He might have to yell at me or put it on a billboard. After waking me up at 3am Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday you would think I would get the hint. It wasn't until church today that we sang this song that it finally hit me.


I can walk through the storm
I can walk by faith when my sight is gone
Just as long as you are here with me
And I can gain everything
But what do I have if I don't have the key
Oh I need to know you're here with me

Here I am calling out Father
Can you hear me, can you hear me
I don't want to go without you
Here I am can You talk a little louder
So I can hear You, I want to hear You
I don't want to move without You

Even though I believe
You've taken up a home inside me
And you'll never leave
I still need to know You're here with me

Here I am calling out Father
Can you hear me, can you hear me
I don't want to go without you
Here I am can You talk a little louder
So I can hear You, I want to hear You
I don't want to move without You

If Your presence goes I don't want to stay
If Your presence stays I don't want to go
If Your presence goes I don't want to stay
If Your presence stays I don't want to go
I need You

**Without You - Shane and Shane


It is a great song and like I said earlier, I have loved it from the moment I heard it. What struck me today was this line - Here I am can you talk a louder so I can hear you, I want to hear you. In church I heard God say - I CAN'T TALK ANY LOUDER.

Ever had these kind of moments when you know what God is asking you to do but you either don't to do it, are scared to do it, think someone else would be better at it, or that maybe you heard Him wrong??

My world was rocked by God. He continues to make me uncomfortable and push me to things that I never thought I was capable of. Trusting Him is hard when He has such HUGE plans for me and I doubt my ability. I LOVE this jouney of life. The ups and downs. The storms and the times of peace. God is mysterious and all-knowing. Just when I think I have Him all figured out, He surprises me again.

Don't limit God! Don't ask for answers unless you are ready for the real answers. Don't ask for it to made perfectly clear if you don't want to know the answer!!


Father...I don't want to move without you. Thank you for talking louder when I can't hear over all of the noise of life.